yeah. I'm trying 2 make you fall for me..sorta ...

So on the 10'th of January I noticed I had received a friend request among 5 or 6...
....now that I think about it, its probably been there with the other but I ignored it because the other ones were bands (I'm tired of Bands hittingme up)
......so here's the next chain of events..... my heart is smiling right now =)
...here we go.

.....I lo0ked at the request's and ofcourse the latest 1 was from a person.
.......thinking this was myspace, I did what I always do.
1) lo0k @ the amount of friends they have. Only so I could see if its a fake profile..
....2) their pics =)
.........
.....then I usually just go head and leave them a "Thanks for the add" or a "PreShate the add"
.......so I did that =)
.....Then I decided lemme lo0k at the pics....and then "it" happened.
....it was like a breath of fresh-air in a ro0m filled with smog.
......I left a few comments on some pics....
.......then I forgot to sign off....and the next day got a message from said person.
....the Subject read as follows:
"Are you...."
....and I'm not gonna reveal the whole message because that would take away the validity of it (in my mind)
.......then I figured I'd respond....and try and putmy best fo0t forward and sound as smart as possible...Never again! :(
......I naturally have a sense of humo that some can grasp and most don't get and a select few love and relate to....
.......I should have kept it short and thankful =)

.....
.......maybe I'm over thinking it or maybe I'm crushing...
...in anycase I talked myself into not ho0king up till I'm 100percent happy this year so that I can make some 1 else happy...makes sense right?...that's a blog entry for another day.

......so anyway...I'm crushing.
...I like it. I like to think that in my mind some 1 that lo0ks like pure perfection could actually like me...even as a friend.......

....its like getting a gift after christmas...and you think its not really gonna be the best gift ever...and then your wrong.....
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..........I feel like shit.
..ugly even.
....its time 2 get serious....and work on "ME"....how else am I gonna get a chance right?
........

"09"....lets discuss it a little bit..

Toward the ending of 08 I:

1) Quit my job to prove a point

2) spent all the money I had saved up trying to prove a point

And told every 1 I was ok, to prove a point =)

......all this before december...
........now that 09 is here I'm already feeling behind.

..........I'm not caring about proving points, but I made 08 the "year of licenses" and now I'm realizing there's not much work I can get with my Fire Gaurd license........isn't that great?!
.....January 13'th and I haven't found a job relatiing to my licenses....

.......I'll spare the boring parts and just head right over to craigsList I guess....But first I need to discuss some 1.
....Proceed to next and most recent entry please =)