continuation from prior Post

....exactly 4 min after writing the previous entry...
....I received a text letting me know I'm the object of fantasy and a mental image of me is used while masturbation....
.......I'm gonna vomit now.

I'm F**K'n Tired of you.......

You know that friend that's:
1) Clingy
2) needs attention all the fucking time
3) makes you un'comfortable
4) appears to be blind and deaf at the same time
5) acts like Jessica simpson
6) can't clearly see their over stepping them selves
........
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......First off lemme state I'm not an angel.
...secondly I guess I have been guilty of 1 or 2 of those things once or twice in my life..but never like a crazy stalker!!!....butttttt this is about it being done 2 me...and more friends are doing it to me every day...
...if we just started texting last week thursday....and had one phone convo friday night, don't tell me that I'm
1) fuckin sexxy (cause u don't know that for sure)
That I'm
2) perfect (cause even if I was I would fight against that every day)
That I'm
3) the best, good person, caring, amazing, smart...
.....too much compliments are annoying..it makes me wanna kill myself.....the compliments stop after you call me "cute"..

... the rest is the biggest annoying thing u can do (guy or girl)
...DON'T FUCKIN BE A CLINGY ASS BITCH.......its not cute to attach ur self to some 1 soo quickly..its not co0l to wanna pretend to be dating.....its not right to make ur self think I'm interested, if everytime you bring up "FUCKING"......I bring up the latest C.D's that are out in stores.
.......I don't mind hearing ur problems..but truth remains that if ur able 2 afford a phone to text and call me on...then u are indeed not that bad off...more pple have it worse than you.
....don't ask me for a FUCKING HUG every 4 minutes....don't call me "Boo"
....I'm not Casper
........ughhhhhh its like we went from being friends to me being your father, husband, bestfriend, brother, lover and slave all @ once.......
...........I'm doing this thing now where I'll just cut you off.....its been done to me, so y not pass it forward?!
.............don't be a Sponge and try to soak me up. Don't offer me money, just because I happen 2 tell u getting my license is not easy for me these days. Don't try and explain us moving in together during the summer...Actually don't talk to me about "US" period....
....just be a friend. I am to you right?

And if I wasn't I'm sure I'd hear you running your mouth about it.
..........."if u want luv, go get your father."

.....this message has been brought to by one pissed off black kid.

yeah. I'm trying 2 make you fall for me..sorta ...

So on the 10'th of January I noticed I had received a friend request among 5 or 6...
....now that I think about it, its probably been there with the other but I ignored it because the other ones were bands (I'm tired of Bands hittingme up)
......so here's the next chain of events..... my heart is smiling right now =)
...here we go.

.....I lo0ked at the request's and ofcourse the latest 1 was from a person.
.......thinking this was myspace, I did what I always do.
1) lo0k @ the amount of friends they have. Only so I could see if its a fake profile..
....2) their pics =)
.........
.....then I usually just go head and leave them a "Thanks for the add" or a "PreShate the add"
.......so I did that =)
.....Then I decided lemme lo0k at the pics....and then "it" happened.
....it was like a breath of fresh-air in a ro0m filled with smog.
......I left a few comments on some pics....
.......then I forgot to sign off....and the next day got a message from said person.
....the Subject read as follows:
"Are you...."
....and I'm not gonna reveal the whole message because that would take away the validity of it (in my mind)
.......then I figured I'd respond....and try and putmy best fo0t forward and sound as smart as possible...Never again! :(
......I naturally have a sense of humo that some can grasp and most don't get and a select few love and relate to....
.......I should have kept it short and thankful =)

.....
.......maybe I'm over thinking it or maybe I'm crushing...
...in anycase I talked myself into not ho0king up till I'm 100percent happy this year so that I can make some 1 else happy...makes sense right?...that's a blog entry for another day.

......so anyway...I'm crushing.
...I like it. I like to think that in my mind some 1 that lo0ks like pure perfection could actually like me...even as a friend.......

....its like getting a gift after christmas...and you think its not really gonna be the best gift ever...and then your wrong.....
...
.....
..........I feel like shit.
..ugly even.
....its time 2 get serious....and work on "ME"....how else am I gonna get a chance right?
........

"09"....lets discuss it a little bit..

Toward the ending of 08 I:

1) Quit my job to prove a point

2) spent all the money I had saved up trying to prove a point

And told every 1 I was ok, to prove a point =)

......all this before december...
........now that 09 is here I'm already feeling behind.

..........I'm not caring about proving points, but I made 08 the "year of licenses" and now I'm realizing there's not much work I can get with my Fire Gaurd license........isn't that great?!
.....January 13'th and I haven't found a job relatiing to my licenses....

.......I'll spare the boring parts and just head right over to craigsList I guess....But first I need to discuss some 1.
....Proceed to next and most recent entry please =)