Me: wazzup?
X: heyyy "Happy BirthDay"
Me: Thanx...lol
X: what did you do today?
Me: woke at 4:30am....ummm went to work....responded 2 some "Happy B Day texts"......ummm watched TopModel.. Etccc..nuttin speshul
X: ohhh you ok?
Me: eww..don't ask me that..lol ...I'm not a baby I'm fine..you know I don't celebrate my birthday anymore
X: yeah I know....maybe u should just tell me y cause the masses wanna know Ｌ(ッ)Ｌ™
Me:..Ｌ(ッ)Ｌ™ --another time....I have my reasons.
X: so what gifts you got?
Me: ummm nothing---ohhh my mom made food though. ♂ kept saying ♂ made my favorite food, but what ♂ made wasn't my fav food ...that hurt a lil bit..but I aint let her see that. Feel me?
X: yeah--maybe your too difficult
Me: eww..I'm not...we don't do the gift exchange thing....usually ＄ in a card...or we go out and I pick my shit.......so were gonna set a date..but I'm over it.
X: yet u sound ?...on your birthday....you saidu wasn't expecting anything and that u don't celebrate it and shit...y u sound sooooo stank man?
Me: I realized...that I'm lucky.
I'm alive. Not starving. Has a mom who loves me. A job that pays me upto 16/hour.
Dreams that now seem reachable (thanks to my job)
....and even though some pple woulda wanted gifts and shit---i really wanted a phone call from (blank). =(
.......I'll live. I don't have a choice!
....I'll holla @ you L8a X---ima finish watch this shit then head 2 bed. I'm tired.
X: aight man. And cheer . You gettin paid soon and remember those DolceSneaks you wanted?..u can get emm now.
Me: ohhh yeahhh....when one feels ..Dolce&Gabbana should be the answer...NOTTTTTTT ! ! !
X: retard..Ｌ(ッ)Ｌ™ --hit me 2morrow or suttin.
Me: Peace <3
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Friday, May 2, 2008
CaptainsLog::Liar-Liar
Y do people lie?
...I would have 2 say that pple lie to keep from hurting some one(s)
.....spare themselves embarassment
...........defense Mechanism
....habitual
............................................................................................................................
So 2night some 1 lied to me.
...I knew they were lying...and I woulda said something, but opted not 2.
....because frankly this person lies all the time...and not in a "second nature" kind of way......the sole purpose of these lies are to make the person they are dating look G☆★D in my eyes.
When did I ever carry sooo much power?....I could care less who a friend dates...I care even lesser whe its not really a G☆★D friends of mines dating some 1 one..and their lying to make their Shit'tabulous relationship seem like a fairy tale unraveling in brooklyn.
........it was difficult hearing the lie over and over again..and being there as this person chose to be so kind and tell the same lie to another friend...Recycling lies! ...NOT CUTE!!!!!!
.......*SIGH*---If your dating some 1 just based on looks...that's fine..ifyour dating some 1 because their dating you b ased on your looks, fine.
...just for sex?
........probably even a better reason to stick with them
..just for money? That's your choice
.......to hurt some one else?
That's a little evil..but the point is
WHO GIVES A SHIT???
I DON'T.
Just be happy...that's all that matters.....if you keep claimiung your dating some 1 wonderful and shit and they are never with you then people will looks at you and think what???..that's your lyin. And if your co0l with that..so am I.
......I like games...I'll play along.
Ohhhhhhhhhhhh......this blog has been ummm..aight..I can't add a default pic 2 my profile thanx 2 this SideKick...I hate that....anyway...I will be writing in conversation form next entry..and probably here on out.....I luv being the captain----but it gets lonely..a convo between buddies should keep my interest...
...ughhhhhhh 3 entries in 1 night...I'm tired...
....fur'wheel son ! ! !
......domestic violence.
Cute on the "LIFETIME" channel...not sooo CUTE on your Face.
...I would have 2 say that pple lie to keep from hurting some one(s)
.....spare themselves embarassment
...........defense Mechanism
....habitual
............................................................................................................................
So 2night some 1 lied to me.
...I knew they were lying...and I woulda said something, but opted not 2.
....because frankly this person lies all the time...and not in a "second nature" kind of way......the sole purpose of these lies are to make the person they are dating look G☆★D in my eyes.
When did I ever carry sooo much power?....I could care less who a friend dates...I care even lesser whe its not really a G☆★D friends of mines dating some 1 one..and their lying to make their Shit'tabulous relationship seem like a fairy tale unraveling in brooklyn.
........it was difficult hearing the lie over and over again..and being there as this person chose to be so kind and tell the same lie to another friend...Recycling lies! ...NOT CUTE!!!!!!
.......*SIGH*---If your dating some 1 just based on looks...that's fine..ifyour dating some 1 because their dating you b ased on your looks, fine.
...just for sex?
........probably even a better reason to stick with them
..just for money? That's your choice
.......to hurt some one else?
That's a little evil..but the point is
WHO GIVES A SHIT???
I DON'T.
Just be happy...that's all that matters.....if you keep claimiung your dating some 1 wonderful and shit and they are never with you then people will looks at you and think what???..that's your lyin. And if your co0l with that..so am I.
......I like games...I'll play along.
Ohhhhhhhhhhhh......this blog has been ummm..aight..I can't add a default pic 2 my profile thanx 2 this SideKick...I hate that....anyway...I will be writing in conversation form next entry..and probably here on out.....I luv being the captain----but it gets lonely..a convo between buddies should keep my interest...
...ughhhhhhh 3 entries in 1 night...I'm tired...
....fur'wheel son ! ! !
......domestic violence.
Cute on the "LIFETIME" channel...not sooo CUTE on your Face.
CaptainsLog:: in reference to Previous entry.
I was caught in something...I would say a "moment"...but my imagination is too out of control for such a boring place 2 be.
So yeah..about 2 entries ago I talked about stealing some 1 from someone else...although I have honestly thought about it.... I was watching tv that night..and got caught in a falseNess.....my friend lost a family member...and I'm actually happy that there's some one there provide the comfort and support that I can't. (Yeah I'm usually emotionally absent)
........with that said I'm not apologizing for my entry...I'm just realizing that I don't feel now what I was feeling then.
....like I said..I wasn't caught in a moment...its like I was apart of a soapOpera...and was planning a brilliant story line....where I would have won....but I realized I don't wanna win some one. I don't wanna tear some one apart from someone who's loving them better than and probably more than me at the moment....and when's all said and done. When I'm ready and got my shit organized I'll see what life gives me.
......which shouldt be much cause I don't want much. I just want some one I can be "WEAK" for.
...........
So yeah..about 2 entries ago I talked about stealing some 1 from someone else...although I have honestly thought about it.... I was watching tv that night..and got caught in a falseNess.....my friend lost a family member...and I'm actually happy that there's some one there provide the comfort and support that I can't. (Yeah I'm usually emotionally absent)
........with that said I'm not apologizing for my entry...I'm just realizing that I don't feel now what I was feeling then.
....like I said..I wasn't caught in a moment...its like I was apart of a soapOpera...and was planning a brilliant story line....where I would have won....but I realized I don't wanna win some one. I don't wanna tear some one apart from someone who's loving them better than and probably more than me at the moment....and when's all said and done. When I'm ready and got my shit organized I'll see what life gives me.
......which shouldt be much cause I don't want much. I just want some one I can be "WEAK" for.
...........
CaptainsLog:: NewLife-..ok not really.
Starting over can be fun.
....there's always this un'easy feeling I get in the pit of stomach when I first meet pple (especially at new jobs)
.....
.......Wed april 30 I started at my new trabajo.
Position: FireGuard
Location: lowerManhattan
Pay: more than I expected (and payed lunch)
Coworkers: Maddd Chilll.
......with that said..my journey actually started tuesday (the day before)....I decided that the bullShit agency and bull'Shitting lady who never calls me back is not worth it and waisting my time..mind you I was supposed to be employed 4 weeks ago.
...........so yeah I spent all day in the bronx and most of the night till about 8:30pm...(I reached home after 10pm ..I found out that the very next day I'm working the day shift. The day shift actually stats at 7am and ends at 3:30pm....ughhhhhh...I was late my first day..but the manager was cool about it...and sincebeng late is not longer an option---i wake at 4:30am now...I'm still not used to it.
............ .......... ...........
.............. but yeah---i already got more bills on my plate and pple needing to borrow (which I don't do unless your V.I.P)....
............I never thought I wuld be a licensed FireGuard...its G☆★D pay...so no complaints here.
....lets see how long I enjoy my self here.....
...ohhhhh I get paid every 2 weeks...I fucken hate that shit...
.....I spent all the money in my bank account (while I was un'employed) :(
...so once I get Pizz'aid...ima ake a spesul friend out....not like a date cause I don't wanna be leading pple on..just a "I really appreciate you as a friend and I'm gonna start showing you that more often" type of outing..maybe a dinner ad a movie..or maybe just dinner..or just a movie...or skip all that and hit a 24/hour mcdonalds and just bug out and laugh :)
......that's the only thing keeping me going while I write this cause I'm maddd tiredddd → now.
...........
...................
.....its amazing who we come across in life....I had lunch with a co-worker 2day...mad cool...and were both in different parts of ourlives...but using this job to get to one place.
....... a Better Life.
....there's always this un'easy feeling I get in the pit of stomach when I first meet pple (especially at new jobs)
.....
.......Wed april 30 I started at my new trabajo.
Position: FireGuard
Location: lowerManhattan
Pay: more than I expected (and payed lunch)
Coworkers: Maddd Chilll.
......with that said..my journey actually started tuesday (the day before)....I decided that the bullShit agency and bull'Shitting lady who never calls me back is not worth it and waisting my time..mind you I was supposed to be employed 4 weeks ago.
...........so yeah I spent all day in the bronx and most of the night till about 8:30pm...(I reached home after 10pm ..I found out that the very next day I'm working the day shift. The day shift actually stats at 7am and ends at 3:30pm....ughhhhhh...I was late my first day..but the manager was cool about it...and sincebeng late is not longer an option---i wake at 4:30am now...I'm still not used to it.
............ .......... ...........
.............. but yeah---i already got more bills on my plate and pple needing to borrow (which I don't do unless your V.I.P)....
............I never thought I wuld be a licensed FireGuard...its G☆★D pay...so no complaints here.
....lets see how long I enjoy my self here.....
...ohhhhh I get paid every 2 weeks...I fucken hate that shit...
.....I spent all the money in my bank account (while I was un'employed) :(
...so once I get Pizz'aid...ima ake a spesul friend out....not like a date cause I don't wanna be leading pple on..just a "I really appreciate you as a friend and I'm gonna start showing you that more often" type of outing..maybe a dinner ad a movie..or maybe just dinner..or just a movie...or skip all that and hit a 24/hour mcdonalds and just bug out and laugh :)
......that's the only thing keeping me going while I write this cause I'm maddd tiredddd → now.
...........
...................
.....its amazing who we come across in life....I had lunch with a co-worker 2day...mad cool...and were both in different parts of ourlives...but using this job to get to one place.
....... a Better Life.
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